February 9, 2012.

.. Music does help.. Drowns them out..
No ma, my music isn't too loud..
No ma, my ear isn't getting better.
No ma, it won't make my ear worse.
No ma, I'm not trying to get away from you.
Maybe a little.
But only when you make them worse.
My head pounds with their voices.
Yours would only mix with them,
Encourage them.

Last night mum needled me. I lay for half an hour alone, blind.. With nothing but my music. I thought. I relaxed though. Everything felt so unreal though. I returned to the real word a bit..
Am I really so vain?..
Not your fault.
But it's so selfish..
He's not even terribly intelligent.
Could be. Intelligent beings put on masks.
Could be that he has no mask.
There's something.. More though. I saw some of it.
Meh.
20 days ..