Been a while. Hearing more things, seeing more things more often. I hate the end of the quarter of school, always far too stressful for no good damned reason. Throwing projects and shit on us.. Bleh. And then a quiz every other class. x-x
Also I almost lost my job today, that was wonderful. I fixed that well enough I think, but definitely going to need cooperation from the other side as well as more effort shown while I'm there.
Adding to the list of shit, I messed up my sacrum somehow. Pulled a muscle too, everything's all messed up. I did it sometime yesterday and this morning I woke up in pain, but it wasn't too bad. Went through class up until p.e well enough. Ended up hopping once in this one activity where you have to basically do hopscotch and fell on my face in front of the class cause' my leg buckled. <3 Damn that was fun.
Mum still has not even found a psychologist for me, doubt she's looked into it.. May be time this weekend to corner her about that.
More scars on my arm. Twelve at least. All from within the past two months, max three months. Never used to cut my wrists till' now, heh. Would always go for less noticeable places. Perhaps I stopped caring.
Gotta be honest, ghosts are stirring. I had a dream recently about an ex of mine, whom left me with bruises, held a knife to my throat once, wouldn't let me speak.. You get the picture.
It really bugged me. My head hasn't left me alone since then.
It won't go away. he won't go away.
I need to get rid of him. Somehow.
Just need them to stop..
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